One Year Later, This Brings Hurt More Than Happiness

I try really hard not to let this blog space be used for any personal pity party and if this comes off as such today, then in advance, I apologize.

A certain memory popped up on my Facebook Timeline this morning.  One year ago, our son was accepted into the college of his choice, Coastal Carolina University.  Additionally, he was accepted into, and received significant scholarship money from, their prestigious PGM Program in their business school.

It was a big deal, and a great day.

When I look at the picture below I see my son, as a HS Senior.  He's LOVING life.  His immediate future is set.  He's ready for the rest of his 12th Grade victory lap that includes a final Golf Season LOADED with promise.  Just look at that smile.

However, it brings tears to my eyes today.

Today, I see what could have been.  I seen a young man who has NO IDEA that his world is just a few months from being ripped apart by a global pandemic.

I see a kid who had SO MANY dreams and plans that he never had the chance to realize.  As his father, it broke my heart then, it breaks my heart now.

And hey, I know he got to go to college, but even that has been NOWHERE near what it should have/could have been so far.

The worst part for me?

That smile.

I can't remember the last time I saw him smile like that.

I hope I can't say that a year from now.